#WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY IN FIFTY YEARS WILL THIS ALL BE DECLASSIFIED

[officrnolen]

me: im dealing with the finale very well actually my wip maddie playlist: has a few tswift songs on it but especially "the smallest man who ever lived" on it

[forseeingterribletrouble]

Picture this:

The girl you’ve wanted to marry since you were twelve is going through a breakup, losing her best friend of three years, and a death in the family.

All that time, you’ve been secretly sleeping with Someone Else, who you’ve known for those 4 months.

The girl you want to marry finds out and tells you that since you’ve been keeping this from her, you have to leave her life.

Therefore, five days later, you get into a relationship with Someone Else.

3 months into your relationship, the girl you want to marry apologises for being so angry and asks if you can be friends, talking once a week.

You say yes, and forgive her.

You are friends for three more months.

6 months into your relationship, Someone Else asks you to stop talking to the girl you want to marry, so you do.

Someone Else treats you incredibly poorly during your 21-month-long relationship. She breaks up with you.

Three weeks after the break up, you go back to the girl you want to marry and ask to be friends. It’s been fourteen months since you last spoke.

She is happy.

You’re happy.

You tell her that she’s “all you’ve ever wanted.”

You tell the girl you want to marry that you don’t know why you ever started dating Someone Else, and you regret what happened between you.

One day, she asks you “Do you think you have treated people in the past the same way you would have wanted / expected yourself to treat me?”

You reply,

“I like to think I have treat people very well but I feel like if they got 90 you’d get 100

No matter how I’ve treated people I think if it came to you there would’ve always been that bit more put in to it

Like there was and is definitely stuff I don’t mind doing with/for you that I don’t mind doing simply cos it’s you”

Less than three days later, you get a voice message from Someone Else and her friend.

You do not tell the girl you want to marry.

You go to the pub with Someone Else and her friend.

Someone Else stays over at your house. The house that she used to live in. With you.

You do not tell the girl you want to marry.

You haven’t spoken to her in two days.

The girl you want to marry tells you her and her boyfriend have finally broken up.

She asks you to go on a walk.

Then, and only then, do you tell the girl you want to marry about how you’ve rekindled things with Someone Else.

You say the pair of you are on “good terms,” and it’s “Nice.”

The girl you want to marry is upset by this.

A day later, she tells you that she can’t be around you, if Someone Else is too, because of what you’ve done in the past.

You don’t speak to her for three more days.

You tell the girl you’ve wanted to marry since you were twelve that, while you do want her in your life, you’ve been asked to “stop talking to people to keep talking to others too many times now”.

Is it obvious what your intentions are?

Is it obvious how you currently feel, or will likely go on to feel, about the girl you’ve wanted to marry since you were twelve?

Is,

“I like to think I have treat people very well but I feel like if they got 90 you’d get 100

No matter how I’ve treated people I think if it came to you there would’ve always been that bit more put in to it

Like there was and is definitely stuff I don’t mind doing with/for you that I don’t mind doing simply cos it’s you,”

Indicated within your response? Or within your behaviour?

I must be missing the part where you said, “unless I was put in the position where I had to make a personal sacrifice in order to have a relationship with you.”

Maybe six years worth of belief, opinions, love, development, and connection got smashed and destroyed in 66 hours.

What do you think?

[coquettesophia]

"You're so quiet."

What do you want me to do? Scream Taylor swift lyrics? Because I will

[xcleanx]

were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? were you writing a book? were you a sleeper-cell spy? in fifty years will all this be declassified? and you'll confess why you did it… and i'll say good riddance ’cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden…. I WOULD’VE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE!!!!!!!!! AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WON’T GET TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU’LL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS YOU CRASHED MY PARTY IN YOUR RENTAL CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU SAID NORMAL GIRLS WERE BORING BUT YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS BUT YOU’RE STILL PERFORMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…………. and in the plain sight you hid……. and you are what you did…… and i’ll forget you but i’ll never forgive…. the smallest man who ever lived.

[stumbleonhometomycats]

WERE YOU SENT BY SOMEONE? WHO WANTED ME DEAD? DID YOU SLEEP WITH A GUN UNDERNEATH OUR BED? WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK? WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY? IN FIFTY YEARS WILL ALL THIS BE DECLASSIFIED? AND YOU'LL CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT...... AND I'LL SAY, "GOOD RIDDANCE" CAUSE IT WASN'T SEXY ONCE IT WASN'T FORBIDDEN I WOULD HAVE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT! YOU! WON'T! GET! TIME! YOU'LL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS YOU CRASHED MY PARTY AND YOUR RENTAL CAR YOU SAID "NORMAL" GIRLS WERE BORING BUT YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS BUT YOU'RE STILL PERFORMING AND IN PLAIN SIGHT YOU HID BUT YOU ARE WHAT YOU DID AND I'LL FORGET YOU BUT I'LL NEVER FORGIVE...the smallest man who ever lived

[fillthisghosttownupwithlife]

WERE YOU SENT BY SOMEONE WHO WANTED ME DEAD? DID YOU SLEEP WITH A GUN UNDERNEATH OUR BED? WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK? WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY? IN FIFTY YEARS WILL THIS ALL BE DECLASSIFIED? AND YOU CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT. AND I'LL SAY "GOOD RIDDANCE!" CAUSE IT WASN'T SEXY ONCE IT WASN'T FORBIDDEN. I WOULD'VE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE. AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WON'T GET TIME. YOU'LL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS. YOU CRASHED MY PARTY AND YOUR RENTAL CARS. YOU SAID NORMAL GIRLS WERE BORING BUT YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING. YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS BUT YOU'RE STILL PERFORMING. AND IN PLAIN SIGHT YOU HID. BUT YOU ARE WHAT YOU DID. AND I'LL FORGET YOU BUT I'LL NEVER FORGIVE THE SMALLEST MAN WHO EVER LIVED.

[theircrazyfandoms]

"Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead, did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed, were you writing a book, were you a sleeper cell spy, in fifty years will all this be declassified, and you"ll confess all what you did, and i'll say good riddance, cause it wasn't sexy, it wasn't forbidden, I would have died for your sins, instead I just died inside, and you deserve prison but you won't get time"

[lipslikethegardensofbabylon]

#ttpd analysis day fourteen - The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

i'm gonna be honest with you this was the hardest song to dissect because every time i listen to it the bridge makes me lose my mind. it has the same addictive pull as the bridge of Would've, Could've, Should've, Cruel Summer, Getaway Car. it's SO good, imo one of her best bridges ever written.

i first want to comment on in your Jehovah's Witness suit which is again another lol-lyric moment, but in a big brain connection i saw that @thisisctrying pointed out that he was essentially selling her a religion. i love this bc it continues the religious imagery of Guilty As Sin?

you hung me on your wall, stabbed me with your push pins makes me think of a couple of different things - image wise, it makes me think of pinning a map up on a wall, marking places that you’ve been (also a hint of carve your name into my bedpost ≠ i'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song (from FOB)). it also makes me think of pierced through the heart but never killed. the other connection that comes up is to “put a pin in it” means to save something for later, typically to postpone something useful but not for immediate use. this meaning feels more likely given the subsequent were you a sleeper cell spy? in fifty years, will all this be declassified?

the bridge just goes so hard, I’m obsessed. there are a few callbacks to previous work but to me this bridge is on mtr echelon:

the betrayal in did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? is so good. esp given how she historically describes her bed/room as a safe space - turned my bed into a sacred oasis/drew a map on your bedroom ceiling/the warmest bed I’ve ever known

the gun weapon of choice is also interesting to me considering she’s also discussed daggers and poison, and a gun specifically has to be loaded. it makes me think of memories feel like weapons/we gather stones, never knowing what they'll mean, some to throw, some to make a diamond ring

the line were you writing a book? IMMEDIATELTY made me think of so I'll go back to L.A. and the so-called friends who'll write books about me, if I ever make it which is especially painful i think for the narrator. they’ve historically said “I struggle a lot with the idea that my life has become unmanageably sized,” she continued. “Not to sound too dark, but I just struggle with the idea of not feeling like a person.” and this lyric does exactly that - it reduces the person to a product, a story to be sold for a profit.

to end, the lyric and in plain sight you hid but you are what you did and I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive gives me such chills. i saw someone share that they had a history of abuse and that lyric made them feel so validated. there’s just something so haunting and angry but beautiful about it.

[my-castles-crumbling]

WERE YOU SENT BY SOMEONE 🤔🤔🤔

WHO WANTED ME DEAD ❌️❌️❌️

DID TOU SLEEP 💤💤💤

WITH A GUN UNDER OUR BED 🔫🔫🔫

WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK 📚📚📚📚

WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY? 🕵️‍♂️

IN FIFTY YEARS 👴👵🧓

WILL ALL THIS BE DECLASSIFIED? 🔎

[with-my-calamitous-love]

MORE REASONS NOT TO END IT ALL:

1) the smell of the grass after it rains

2) sharp eyeliner wings

3) coffins are hella expensive

4) trust me guys i had an attempt and being in the hospital really sucks ☹️ rzn why im writing this

5) laughing so hard you grow a 6 pack

6) finding a new micro-obsession

7) talking to someone about said micro-obsession

8) so american by olivia rodrigo

9) the rush in your heart when someone tells you they love you

10) theres people who still need you around

11) gotta outlive the haters

12) the smell of garlic

13) WERE YOU SENT BY SOMEONE WHO WANTED ME DEAD DID YOU SLEEP WITH A GUN UNDERNEATH OUR BED WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY IN FIFTY YEARS WILL ALL THIS BE DECLASSIFIED AND YOU’LL CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT AND I’LL SAY GOOD RIDDANCE CUZ IT WASNT SEXY ONCE IT WASNT FORBIDDEN I WOULDVE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WONT SERVE TIME YOU’LL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS YOU CRASHED MY PARTY AND YOUR RENTAL CAR YOU SAID NORMAL GIRLS WERE BORING BUT YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHT BUT YOU’RE STILL PERFORMING AND IN PLAIN SIGHT YOU HID BUT YOU ARE WHAT YOU DID AND I’LL FORGET YOU BUT I’LL NEVER FORGIVE (if you know, you know)

14) all your birthdays to come and all the cake to be eaten

15) birds chirping on a crisp spring morning

16) taking cool live photos and pressing them to watch them play out

17) garlic bread

18) those weird and really funny x listener audios click for a surprise

19) drinking cold water at 3am

20) just not today. don’t do it today and keep it up.

please, REBLOG + ADD MORE REASONS!

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Were you sent ➡️ by someone 👤 who wanted me dead ☠️ did you sleep 💤 with a gun 🔫 underneath our bed 🛏 were you writing ✍️ a book 📕 were you a sleeper😴 cell ⛓️ spy 🕵‍♂️ in fifty 5️⃣0️⃣ years 🗓 will all this be declassified 🗃 and you'll confess 💬 why you did it and I'll say 🗣📢 GOOD RIDDANCE 📢 cause it wasn't ❌️ ~sexy~ 🥵 once it wasn't ❌️ forbidden 🚨 I would've died 😵 for your sins ⛪️ instead I just died 🪦 inside 😞 and you 🫵 DESERVE PRISON 🚔 but you WON'T 🙅‍♂️ get TIME ⏱️ you'll slide 📲 into inboxes 📩 and slip through the bars 🪜 you crashed 💥 my party 🎉 and your rental car 🚗 you said normal girls 👩 were BORING 🥱 but you were gone 🧳 by the morning 🌄 you KICKED 🦵 OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS 💡 BUT YOURE STILL PERFORMING 🎙 and in plain sight 👁 you hid 🫣 but you are 💯 what you did ✔️ and I'll forget 🤯 you but I'll never 🚫 forgive ❤️‍🩹 the ~smallest 🤏 man 🧍‍♂️ who ever lived~ 🫀

[vampirel00rd]

Could someone give a message to the smallest man who ever lived?

WHERE YOU SENT BY SOMEONE WHO WANTED ME DEAD?

DID YOU SLEEP WITH A GUN UNDERNEATH OUR BED?

WERE YOU WRITING A BOOK?

WERE YOU SOME SLEEPER CELL SPY?

IN FIFTY YEARS WILL ALL THIS BE DECLASSIFIED?

AND YOULL CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT

AND ILL SAY GOOD RIDANCE

COZ IT WASNT SEXY ONCE IT WASNT FORBIDDEN

I WOULDVE DIED FOR YOUR SINS

INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE

AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WONT GET TIME

YOULL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS

YOU CRASHED MY PARTY AND YOUR RENTAL CAR

YOU SAID NORMAL GIRLS WERE BORING

BUT YOU WERE GONE BY MORNING

YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS BIT YOURE STILL PERFORMING

lala.

[allamericanb-tch]

remus “were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? were you writing a book? were you a sleeper cell spy? in fifty years, will all this be declassified? and you'll confess why you did it and i'll say, "good riddance" ‘cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden i would've died for your sins instead, i just died inside” lupin

[senatortedcruz]

Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead?

Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed?

Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy?

In fifty years, will all this be declassified?

[likeadevils]

See I don’t get you highlighting Matty for black dog because I think it’s hugely obvious it’s about Joe and their long term relationship? Also black dog is in London. It just sounds like a very long term relationship where both her and Joe have gone before with her time in London especially since it’s clear her and Joe were on and off her thinking joe cheating in the black dog is a call back to songs about him thinking he was cheating

few reasons:

“When someone plays The Starting Line and you jump up but she's too young to know this song that was intertwined in the magic fabric of our dreaming”

“Now we’re at The Starting Line” —Fresh Out The Slammer

Matty covered “The Best of Me” by The Starting Line on April 21, 2023 and May 3, 2023 which i highly recommend reading the lyrics to

“You said I needed a brave man, then proceeded to play him until I believed it too”

“The coward claimed he was a lion”— loml

“How gallant to save the empress / from her gilded tower / Swinging a sword he could barely lift” — In Summation, the epilogue

“I just don't understand how you don't miss me in the shower and remember how my rain-soaked body was shaking, do you hate me? Was it hazing?” and "Were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke?"

“Did you really beam me up in a cloud of sparkling dust, just to do experiments on? Tell me I was the chosen one, showed me that this world is bigger than us, the sent me back where I came from?” — Down Bad

“Was any of it true? Gazing at me starry-eyed in your Jehovah's Witness suit, who the fuck was that guy?” — The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

“And I don't even want you back, I just want to know if rusting my sparkling summer was the goal?” — The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

“Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy? In fifty years, will all this be declassified?” — The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

I also think other little details, like "I may never open up the way I did for you" or them sharing their location with each other, make sense when you take into account that they were friends for a year and a half before they started dating

[heystephen]

were you SENT BY SOMEONE who WANTED ME DEAD DID YOU SLEEP WITH A GUN UNDERNEATH OUR BED were you writing a BOOK WERE YOU A SLEEPER CELL SPY IN FIFTY YEARS WILL ALL THIS BE DECLASSIFIED AND YOULL CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT and ill say GOOD RIDDANCE ‘cause it wasn’t sexy once it wasn’t FORBIDDEN i would HAVE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WONT GET TIME